Hard to believe it’s August. July was a whirlwind of travel and events, full of good times and lots of family. I was even able to check off a few things on my immediate goal list. And for an avid list maker like myself, that is a bonus! Last month one of my goals was to get my shop up and running. Well, I did and it is live. (yay!) But I gotta tell you, I really fought with that one. I wanted to share this with you because the internet has a way of making things look beautiful and easy. People share bits and pieces of their lives and their projects and it all looks so fabulous. The people I truly admire are the ones who share the trials that come along with it. As an entrepreneur, I’ve had my fair share of ups and downs with my business. Entrepreneurial blood runs through my body, and even with the hardships, there’s no way I can stop! I’ve tried, both willingly and unwillingly. But that doesn’t make it any easier for me. When you are the head of a small company, you are the one who has to make all of the ultimate decisions. And sometimes that can get overwhelming! Especially if you have have incurred negative consequences to some of your decisions in the past. Sometimes those experiences come back to “taunt” you. They can try to trip you up and make you unsure of your next step.
I had a hard time deciding if I should wait to open my shop until the new handbag styles came in. Since you all know about the snaffu with the new designs, you know that I have been waiting a long time. During the down time I have continued to create, and blog and brainstorm and create some more. I’ve been traveling and photographing things I love and doing all those things which are natural for me. And all the while a voice inside kept telling me to “start with what you have.” “Start where you are . . .” I even wrote a post about it here. I kept getting confirmation in unexpected places. When talking to friends, somehow the topic of starting where you are would come up. While watching TV, somehow someone on the telly would mention the fact that “all you have is now, this moment. Use what you’ve got.” While reading a book, I would come across similar themes. I took it as more than a sign. I took it as a sort of law of life. I know for a fact that momentum creates momentum. So once you start, you will inevitably be lead to the next step. And since I didn’t have exactly what I wanted to have on hand, I chose to use what I did have. I received so many well wishes, encouragement and inquiries. Thank you to all of you who texted, commented on social media, and purchased goodies from the shop. It really let me know that my decision was one that was right for the moment. Your encouragement also gives me fuel to keep creating and filling up the shop with mas goodness!! I’m glad action won out over resistance, fear of failure, and all of my second guessing. In the grand scheme of things, life is about learning and growing. And as long as I am in the midst of growth, I’ll take that as a +.
Is there any thing in your life you are second guessing yourself about?