This week has been really interesting, for lack of a better word. I’m starting over from scratch researching new manufacturers for my handbag line. Honestly, the whole idea of beginning the process of negotiation and research feels overwhelming. Finding and vetting a manufacturer is really important, for obvious reasons. If you know my story, you know that even vetted manufacturers can prove to be unreliable. This week I started reaching out to domestic manufacturers and I actually saw myself getting in my own way! I recognized that I’ve been very sluggish to respond, I’ve not made calls that I should have, I found all kinds of reasons to do something other than the next task on my to-do list, and I even began questioning and re-questioning previous decisions I’d made regarding the direction of the line. All in all, I am tiring myself out mentally. A true case of self sabotage. I know that this is totally ridiculous, yet still I persist in my non-persistence! The crazy thing is that I recognize it, and am sitting front row center with the bag of proverbial popcorn watching the show. So, I decided to make a note to self of the wise words you see above. This is something my Dad has often told me. Instead of trying to figure everything out at once, detailing out the bigger picture before taking a step (yes, that is a specialty of mine), do what you can. Take baby steps where you are. With what you have. (Thank God there’s no limit on starting over! ☺)
Have you ever suffered from a case of self-sabotage? How did you get through it?
original artwork by Ayanna Listenbee Anderson
Hello beautiful April dwellers!!!! I hope this month finds you living well! Hard to believe it is already April. Spring is definitely in the air. My firstborn will turn 8 years old tomorrow!!! He has matured so quickly in the last few months. It’s amazing to watch, and a blessing to be able to partake in.
On other fronts, God is really working with me on that virtue they call patience. This past month has really been a training ground for it, and I don’t mean that in a bad way. Happy to say I am passing the tests, but it is a minute-by-minute, second-by-second battle. Actually as I write this, I’m not so sure the endurance training I am partaking in is for patience, if I am honest with myself, and at this point in my life, why be otherwise . . . it seems my endurance training is more about letting go and letting God take the reigns. Perhaps it is more a test of faith. I used to think that when you had faith you just didn’t have concerns or worries about your daily situations . . . that you just said to yourself… “No matter, God will take care of it!” What I’ve learned is that that is the correct response, however, you do still have concerns and worries. You just don’t let them hang around as long as you once may have! The concerns, and critical thoughts definitely still pop into your head, but when they do, they should be swiftly dealt with. I do it by telling them to leave and reminding them that God is the source of my supply, and that no weapon formed against me shall prosper!!! These days that’s the way I am handling things. It definitely feels good. But don’t get me wrong, it is still a minute-by-minute battle for me. Does that ever change? Just wondering . . . .
Do you like the image I posted above? I was recently commissioned to create a poster of this quote from an unknown source. I absolutely love this quote. Is this not an amazing way to start the day? I love the idea of attacking something with enthusiasm!!! I made one for my client and myself. Now I have a friendly reminder to look at in the morning when I am getting dressed for the day. What words do you speak to yourself to start your day? Whatever words you choose, I hope they are words of love + encouragement, because you deserve it!!!
Now go forth and ATTACK!!!
Life in Pictures | April 2012
Good morning friends, Happy Thursday! This month is proving to be another busy one! Great things are happening with my business, and I am readying my line for an August/September launch. I am very excited, but there is still much work to be done. The next two weeks I will be deep in the depths of research and product development. I hope you will be patient with me. Of course I have every intention of keeping my regular (or should I say semi-regular) blogging schedule, although . . . you know what they say about good intentions!!!☺ Anyway, I am thankful today for baby steps. Putting one foot in front of the other in spite of any apprehension or uneasiness I may be feeling . . . Keeping it short and sweet today guys. Make it a fabulous one!! xo
What are you thankful for today?
Happy Thursday friends! It has been at least a week since my last post, but I thank you for hanging in there with me. My plate is definitely full, and so are my days. Yet, I feel so blessed with the things God is placing in my lap. Slowly and steadily the vision for my business is becoming a reality and I see myself stepping up to the challenges and turning my goals and dreams into reality. It feels great!!! . . . and somewhat scary. I guess it is just fear of the unknown, and the fact that I like to think I am in control. I am learning everyday that I actually have more control of things when I do my part to the best of my abilities and then release it. Pretty simple when you think about it. Yet hard for a perfectionist/control freak to continuously grasp! :) However, I do see myself changing into the woman I have always known was somewhere deep inside. So, today I am thankful for growth, and the recognition of it.
What are you thankful for today?