I can not believe how much creative energy I have had lately. It’s almost like my brain has been in hibernation mode for the past 9 months and now it is waking up from a deep slumber, ready to produce. I have had an overwhelming urge to draw since January. Lately, I have had such a deep desire to start painting and creating art again, and I am just starting to give into it. I can’t help but stop and ask myself . . . Why has it taken me so long? The urge has been relentless!! I can only equate it to the feeling of knowing you have to go pee, and not wanting to stop what you are doing so that you can go do it, but once you finally do, you feel amazing and ask yourself what took you so long, and what were you waiting for? Please tell me I am not the only one who puts off bathroom breaks . . . tmi? Ok, I digress, but seriously, I have found it hard to get started on some of the projects that have been rumbling around in my head. I have ideas jotted down in my sketchbooks, and Pinterest boards full of ideas that have sparked ideas, but it has been only recently that I have actually begun to sit down and bring these ideas to fruition.
Which brings me to an important question . . .
Can you pinpoint the walls in your life?
I am asking this question because I see myself struggling sometimes against the walls that I have seemingly created for myself. Let me be more clear . . . It’s really as simple as this::
My soul says:: “I want to paint”
My brain says:: “But you need space, a big desk and bright light to paint. You don’t have anywhere where you can spread out and really paint.”
My soul says:: “But I want to paint!”
My brain says:: “Just wait, you don’t have anywhere to do it, so just work on something else.” Don’t worry, you’ll be able to paint soon . . .
9 Months Later . . .
STILL AINT NO PAINTIN’ GOIN’ ON!!!
I AM NOW 9 MONTHS OLDER . . . (jussayin)
Now, let me tell you about ☝that conversation☝that I’ve had going on in my head for the last 9 months . . . IT’S A BUNCH OF MALARKEY!!!! Sorry guys. Plain and simple. The only way to get to the next step is to take the first one. I believe that many of the urges and promptings we are given are to help us birth ideas that God wants us to put out into the universe. I also believe they are indicators to our happiness, that they point the way to things that can bring us joy. . . in a way, they point us toward using our gifts which, in turn, helps to add value to our lives because we are then actually using the gifts that we have been blessed with. In contrast, when we ignore them, we are ignoring a core part of our psyche, and that can lead to depression, anxiety and even stress!
So, it’s back to the drawing board for me, literally. I will be sharing more sketches around these parts in the coming weeks. I know that some of you have even been asking for “The Worn Identity” to return. I can’t promise a full return yet, but I will say there will be more personal style posts of that nature hitting the blog in the near future.
And now, I will leave you with these simple words:: FEED YOUR SOUL.